Top 5 favorite clothing/shoe/accessory Websites!!

1. The first website I wanted to talk about was Deandri.com (http://deandri.com/). Deandri has wonderful, but expensive clothing and accessories. They have sets that go up to $100, as well has harnesses, bibs and collars to wear. What's a harness? Well, one type of harness is on the model's chest in the picture, but there all all types. There are some that go over your entire body, some that are made specifically to go around the collar of your shirt, some for your waist down to your legs, etc. A collar is just another name for a choker, but if you still don't know what i'm talking about, ill show you (top left corner of page).


2. My second favorite online store is, of course, Dollskill.com (http://www.dollskill.com/). I have talked about this online store so many times before on my blog, but I'll tell you what they have anyways. Dollskill has many different types of clothing that fits all different types of alternative styles. They have shoes, necklaces, backpacks, hair accessories, clothing, anything you can think of, they have. I must say though, most of their stuff is expensive, but worth it.


3. My third favorite store is o-mighty.com (http://o-mighty.com/products). Their store is a little odd, but they do have funny, yet inappropriate, sayings on their shirts. Miley Cyrus wears a lot of their clothing and Dollskill has some of their clothing on their shop as well. An example of some of the shirts they have is on the right.


4. My fourth favorite store is etsy.com (https://www.etsy.com/). Etsy has EVERYTHING. Basically, there are a bunch of small shops run by one idivisual that makes things by hand or has clothes they dont want. You can create an account and sell stuff yourself or follow shops and buy stuff off of those shops.


5. For my final favorite shop, I am going to tell you about kittensplaypen.net (http://www.kittensplaypen.net/). Kittens play pen is for people who love to dress up like cats, as well as for people who are into kitten play, which is basically the same thing. Kitten play is a form of BDSM, but i'll tell you guys more about it in a different blog. Kittens play pen has tails, ears, collars, leashes, gags, etc. you can make custom collars, ears, or tails.  (everything on this site except for charms are handmade.)

Top 10 C R A Z Y sHoEs (not in any order)

1. Qozmo lo Rainbow Platform Sneakers.

I like these because they're high and RAINBOWWWW! They are also holographic, and I do love holographic things. These majestic shoes cost $106.00 on Dollskill.com. (4" heel, 3" platform)




















2. Double Stacked Leather Viva Mondo

First off, let me just say that these shoes are bad-ass in every way. These shoes cost $135.00 regular price, but are now on sale for $107.90. You can find these on Dollskill.com as well. (3.75")








3. Qozmo Sky Platforms

I really like these platforms because they're simple, yet crazy at the same time. They go with many things. The only down side would be that they get dirty easily. They cost $135.00 on Dollskill.com (they come in black and black with sparkles as well). These are 6" in the back and 5" in the front.












4. Crushed Velvet Mondo Creepers

I love these creepers because of the pretty ballet pink color, as well as the velvet texture. These cost $83.00 on Dollskill.com. (1.75")

5. Pretty Pink Paint Bucket Hello Kitty Creepers

I think these creepers are rad as heck because of they're holographic and, well, who doesn't like Hello Kitty?! These cost $115.00 on Dollskill.com and measures 1 3/4" tall with a 1 5/8" toe.

6. Viola Spiked Wedges

Now, I personally wouldn't buy these shoes or wear them myself, but i do think they look totally awesome. I LOVE the spiked details. I would imagine that these are extremely difficult to walk in and most definitely are not comfortable. These crazy wedges cost $149.00 and have a 6" heel and a 2" platform.

7. Swan Platform

I love these particular shoes because the heel opens up and you can stick whatever you want inside of them for people to see. I also love that they're simple and are 'ballet-like'. These cost $140.00 on Dollskill.com and have a 3" heel.

8. Rainbow Metallic Viva Mondo 

These awesome creepers are rad simply because of the color. They cost $120.00 regular price, but are on sale for $95.90 on Dollskill.com. They have a 2" platform.

9. Qloud Clear Vinyl Kreep

I absolutely adore these particular creepers because they're basically all translucent. You can also put whatever you like inside of the heel. These lovely shoes cost $126.00 on Dollskill.com and have a 2" platform and a 3" heel.

10. Gumball Jelly Sandal

These cute little baby's aren't crazy, but they're pretty cute and simple. I've always wanted a pair, but could never find them on any site. They do come in different styles and colors, but on Dollskill.com, they come in blue, clear, white, and pink. These cost $40.00.










Those are all of the "crazy" shoes i have for you guys! If your style is like mine and you love these shoes, then go to http://www.dollskill.com/ because they have amazingly rad things.

Modeling

Recently, I've been putting a lot of thought into modeling, an alternative or site model, to be more specific. Mainly because i'm not "normal" enough to be a model or super model, not to mention the fact that it would be more difficult to start a super modeling career. I don't mean to say that becoming a site or alternative model would be easy, either, because it isn't. Site modeling is a great option because you can still do other stuff on the side. I would like to do that as well as have a job as a vet.

Fashion, alternative fashion to be more specific, has become a huge thing for me this past year. It's just really interesting to me! Personally, I would much rather have lived through the 90's because there were crazy things happening with fashion. Also, things were a lot cheaper, but on the other hand, that was only because people weren't making as much as we do now. I tried looking up ways to become a site or alternative model, but I had difficulty obtaining that information. The thing that would be the most difficult is putting yourself out there. This is more difficult for an alternative or site model because you don't get attention from the media, which is because you're not modeling high-end brands.

My favorite model (more like obsession) is Teale Coco. She's a site model, designer and photographer. She also happens to have her own business online making interesting clothes (everything she's wearing in these photos above she created). Some other favorite models I have are alternative models, Candice Alice and Airica Michelle. They both have seperate jobs. Airica Michelle works at place called Distractions in Huntington Beach, and Candice Alice is a hair dresser!! They both happen to be really good friends. Can
dice is the one with orangy hair and Airica is the one with the more colorful hair. That is all for now! next week I will be doing my blog on Airica Michelle.

Despair

Hello world, I am sad. I've been feeling extremely overwhelmed and i'm starting to feel hopeless. I was so sure everything was going to be okay and eventually go my way for 3 months, mainly because everything WAS going my way. I had a lovely boyfriend, who I adored very much and fell head over heals for. I could've done things differently, yes, but I did give my all and actually tried in this relationship. We broke up last Friday. I already knew the night before, so I got my crying over with, thank god! I'm content with everything that had happened, but I keep thinking back to some good times and they always end up leading to him. I am bisexual, which is a good thing because right now I hate boys so much! I am starting to like a girl. She goes to my school and likes me back...she's gorgeous. My best friend, Abbie, recently broke up with her boyfriend of 2&1/2 years!!!!!! So basically her entire high school experience so far was with him. She's always had a huge thing for him. She is destroyed, I can tell. I feel so bad and helpless. I'm terrible at helping people and giving advice. Everything does happen for a reason, though. Another thing that has me overwhelmed is, you guessed it, SCHOOL. Friken school. JKFLDJASGFKLDHJASKFJ. I have an enormous amount of hatred for school. School is the root of most of my problems. Math (geometry, to be more specific) has become extremely difficult for me to understand. I personally dislike my teacher because I do not get her way of teaching; it's so confusing! I just want my old algebra teacher back. She's the best math teacher I have ever had! She's the reason why I am so good at algebra. I'm so nervous that I wont be able to get into the school I want to get into, or be what I want to be because of my grades! I have said this many times before, but it is true. Things that have changed recently: I'm on independent study for Chemistry and i'm doing much better. I am going to be doing a vet tech internship senior year. I have applied for work experience, meaning I am able to drop my electives and leave 6th period everyday and work more hours. I am going to be taking an online English 10 course during the summer to make up for English credits I didn't get my Sophomore year because I failed the first semester. Two things i'm nervous about: Talking to my grandparents about emancipation(i'll get more into detail later) and talking to them about moving to Forest Chartermy senior year. I have been wanting to go to Forest Charter since 8th grade, but my grandparents never let me because they do not believe I have the work ethic, which is true. But, I know that if I transfer to Forest Charter, I will have much improved work ethic and better grades. The way Forest Charter is works better for me because I learn differently than most. They indivisualize a program suited for my needs and the way I learn. They also get me a teacher I would meet with once a month (with my grand parents) to check up on me and see how i'm doing. Forest Charter is a much better option for me, and I need my family to understand that. If I don't go to Forest, I will not be able to graduate high school. The graduation requirements, homework, and amount of homework is too much stress for me, I will crack. Now, let me tell you about the "emancipation plan". My plan was to talk to my grandparents about me getting emancipated because I can not stand to live at home, i'm too sad and depressed and I feel so isolated from everything and everyone. I feel like i'm being too sheltered from the world and it's causing me to rebel. I know they love me and want the best for me, but it's not a good environment for me to grow up in or to live in. There's too much yelling and arguing, and my grandpa is too close-minded and short-tempered. My grandma is more sympathetic, but she still is short-tempered and close-minded. They say I can talk to them about anything, but when I do I either get yelled at, or they take it personally and make it all about them. While the emancipation process is happening, Dominique, my other best friend, and I plan to get an apartment with a responsible, working, 18 year old who has a car and who we trust enough to live with. We have already started looking at apartments, but i'm scared it wont work out and i'll be miserable for another two years. It'll get to the point where I will purposely get myself kicked out of the house. That is all for now, thank you for reading, I will do something more uplifting next Wednesday.

Dolls Kill- the website

Dolls Kill is one of my absolute favorite websites! Their items are a little bit on the pricey side, but they're definitely worth it if you're into the things they have. Every time I go on their website, I want to cry because I just want everything, and I mean EVERYTHING, on there. Their shoes are definitely my favorite. All of their items on their website are by multiple brands. The platforms are mostly made by Y.R.U., like these pink Ballet Bae shoes located on the top left corner of this page. They have these shoes in White, Black and Pink. I want every single color because why not?! I think the pink are feminine and fun, the black are bad ass, and the white are blinding in a way. They cost $135 on their website. I love platforms because then I feel tall for once (I'm barely 5'2")...these shoes would probably make me average height, so 5'6" or so. Below, I will try to show you my top five favorite items on their site and the price, but that's going to be a difficult task considering I want everything. The link for their website is located here, just click on it!---> http://www.dollskill.com/

1) Black Sorcery Bodycon Dress-$76.00

2) The Apocalypto Crop Top-$68.00
 (The model happens to be Teale Coco, whom I talked about in my previous blog)

3) Need You dress-$39.00

4) Flashing Lights Cropped Jacket-Regular: $125 -Sale:$87.50

5) Rose Qozomopolitan Platforms-$166 (also in red)

Tealecoco the Model

I decided that for this week's blog, I would write about Teale coco the model and brand. Teale Coco is a self-titled brand owner, designer, international model, photographer and entrepreneur. First, she completed her bachelor degree in photography (major commercial, minor fashion), then she moved into modeling internationally through her mother's agency 'Darley Management'. She is currently represented by 5 countries world wide and started her self titled fashion label at the end of 2013. In addition to being a site model, she also edits and shoots all of the 'Teale Coco' lookbooks and editorial images.Teale was influenced by occultism, bondage, anatomy, fantasy, horror, death and the subculture of body modification and fetish. Teale states, "I am looking to create unique, quality garments that specialize in exclusivity and empower the wearer. Elegant form fitting designs that cater to the underworld of dark, sensual, tailored garments that can be styled hundreds of ways. My designs are liberating, dominant statement pieces that are not defined by sex or body size.

I got all of this information from her website, http://tealecoco.com/ .

My Struggles and Future Endeavors

 

 Hello, my name is Serina and I have day to day struggles just like everyone else. I really just wanted to talk about how I have been feeling lately to let go of some things I've been holding on to. I do go to a councler to talk about these things, but it's not enough. Honestly, I feel very uncomfortable and out of place around people because I feel like i'm constantly being judged, which I probably am. I also feel this way because people make me nervous, meaning i'm constantly nervous 24/7. I'm always unsure of myself and am constantly stressed about whether or not i'm going to be able to do what I want to do because of my past grades...what really screws everything up are finals or tests. I've never done good on those things, even if I study hard, because I get so nervous and forget everything. I'm not as confident in myself and my body as I should be. If I exercised more and ate healthier, my confidence would boost so much. If I actually had the money to buy clothes that are ACTUALLY my style and had all the piercings I wanted and do my hair the way I want to, my confidence would be off the charts. Those are really small things, but they're so hard to achieve. Eating healthy is all mental. It takes a lot of mental strength to be able to kick your old eating habits, and it takes a lot of mental strength to give yourself motivation to exercise.

     

 Here are my new goals:

1. Eat better. (200 calorie meals 6 times a day)
2. Exercise more. (do at home workouts since I am unable to get a gym membership)
3. Believe in myself. Believe that I will get into the college I want to get into, despite my past grades.
4. Be more confident in my appearance.
5. Get the piercings and clothes I want in the near future.
6. Get a job to make money to get the things I want. (I've been looking for one for almost 2 months now.)
7. End semester with a 3.0 so I can finally start to work towards getting my license.
8. G R A D U A T E! With a 2.0 or higher so my mom will let me live with her in Santa Rosa.

I know I can do these things if I put the effort and time in. Life is such a glorious thing, and I don't intend on waisting it. When I graduate, i'm going to move to Santa Rosa and live with my mom and her boyfriend, look for a job, and go to Santa Rosa Junior College, then transfer to a 4 year to work towards becoming a vet tech. Once I graduate college, I plan on getting a job as a vet tech and staying in Santa Rosa for 1-2 years then move to Santa Cruz. Maybe when I get older i'll move to a different country. Oh! I almost forgot about traveling! Once I save up enough money, I plan on traveling around the world. I have a huge life ahead of me, and I want to be mentally prepared for what's to come. I don't want to sit around being afraid of life and everything in it. It's time to make a change for myself.